Pregnancy and Infant Loss Month

This month is somewhat bittersweet, though not well known this month was set aside for a very special reason. In 1988 president Reagan announced this month National Pregnancy and Infant loss month to honor and remember the 1,000,000 babies lost each year to miscarriage, stillbirth and early Infant death. Unfortunately I have become what I feared most, a survivor....... four times over.

I am very aware and feel completely blessed by the two children I do have, but that does not mean I will not mourn the ones I lost.

I may not have been far along, but as I believe life begins at conception, they were babies to me.

I know that God has his own time, but do not believe I would have gotten pregnant four times if his time was not now.

I believe he has plenty of angels, and did not choose to add my four.

Yes I know I CAN get pregnant, but staying pregnant would be so much better.

I am young and may have years to try,...yet heartache does not skirt you in your youth.

There are four angels to my name. I pray that you are all in Heaven, and that I will indeed see you one day.


Beautiful tribute video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-p3e8_xkoRo

Almost 10 years!!

We are coming up on the tenth year of marriage, I am so blessed in who God picked for me. More in love now than the day we met, and looking forward to many more years together!!

Ship Wrecked!!!

We decided to go to the beach for Kai's 9th Birthday,....to our dismay we floated out further than we expected!!!

As the shark was circling, Kody begged Kai to protect him with a sweet kiss that she loved!!

She fought off the scary beast with sooo much courage!! He swam away in terror!!

We found a beautiful Mermaid sunning herself on the beach...it was her 9th birthday too!!

She let us take pictures of her beautiful tail!....we managed to find our way home after our very exciting day! What a great memory for my darling midget's birthday!

Our 4th!!

Boys!!! Always climbing one thing or the other!

Daddy and the Monkeys!!

The Cousins.....-4 :-((...We missed yall!

Kai and Mommy,..she is my heart!

Such concentration!!! My baby is now 6!!!

We had a great time over at Adela's for the 4th!! Water balloon fights, comedic routines and plenty of great food....including the biggest apple pie EVER!! (will include pics of that soon)...We watched uncle Aaron pummel the Pinata....Uncle Wes filling up 200 water balloons, lol....Uncle Robbie take an entire bucket-o-water ...(we rotated getting all of the stinkers!!...yes you Allana!)..I will post another group of pictures soon, but it's off to bed for me now :-)

Spare Time

I found this great blanket pattern....and had the grand idea to make one for each of my munchkins for their upcoming birthdays....(I cannot believe it.....6 &9!!!!) .....the brilliant idea came after watching Kody...(a very manly boy,.. much to his fathers delight) pet the beginnings of the pink one...and ask to cuddle with it! Unfortunately I am not the only one who likes this particular pattern....I now have 4 more to make, .lol These are folded btw....so are actually quite big when opened....40'' by 40'' I think

Everything Accounted For!!!!!

I just got back from the hospital and wanted to update...:-) I ended up having a diagnostic laproscopy, hysteroscopy and D&C..... I came out of the OR with all parts intact!!! He actually said that the tubes looked great and complimented Dr. Perez's work!!!! He did find fibroids in my uterus and removed them,....and told me that they may have been interferring with implantation...(so I did in fact loose all 3 babies...instead of just fetal tissue producing hormones)....So,...I am home... very sore (feel like yelling boo boo, like my short people,. lol...) .... but feel sooooo relieved that I didnt loose anything......Oh....and a funny note.....on my way in to the OR I apparantly told my doctor that if he had to take a tube I wanted it back when they were done with it... b/c those darn things weren't cheap, lol. Not really sure what on earth I would have done with it!

Under the knife.

I just wanted to add a quick update as to the goings on of late. I am going in for surgery on Monday......a Diagnostic Laproscopy and D&C......following yet another loss. They are going to be searching for a possible chronic ectopic pregnancy,....Im am hoping that I will not loose a tube or ovary,.. but I know that this is a possibility. I will update after we have a better idea of the issue that is causing the losses. I definately hate having to go in for surgery... something about when they put you under is hard for me to swallow....but answers have been long awaited... I am comforted by that.


On another note...the kids are going to be out for the summer on Thursday and we are very excited about all the play time :-)) .....Aaron is in clinicals and doing very well.